I have been rather quiet here lately. Much of my writing time over the past weeks has been spent on preparing our adoption papers. Jason and I had to answer countless in-depth questions, separately and together. It has been a long process, but I’m happy to report that we are (mostly) finished!
It has been quite a time of introspection; thinking about our lives, our trials and our strengths. The good, bad and ugly about every aspect of our lives. Revisiting the emotions surrounding our infertility has been difficult for me. I read this quote today and loved the imagery of it:
I am humbled by the outpouring of love and support we have received lately. For example, the homeschool co-op we’re a part of is high on that list of dedicated supporters. They have taken on our cause and are working together to raise money for our adoption. They’ve got fundraisers planned throughout the rest of the school year: bake sales, garage sales, bread orders (delivered weekly), selling pumpkins grown in our gardening club over the summer, and more. All the proceeds are going toward our dream of adding another little one to our family.
I am at a loss to express my gratitude. These families have their own trials and difficulties, but they are excited and enthusiastic about donating time and money to help our little family grow. I am overwhelmed by their kindness. Truthfully, I feel a little guilty and shy about accepting their help. It’s much easier for me to be on the giving end than the receiving end.
As I let go of my apprehension, however, I feel thoroughly and completely loved and blessed by good friends and family.